A time for everything

Despite only displaying four comments on the previous topic, my email inbox is littered with responses, from my friends and several others. So it's obvious the subject has sparked off some emotional debate. Well Jaye and I decided that we were going to take some time out to discuss how to move forward.

This we did and recently spent the night having DBB in a cosy room, not far from home. We talked and discussed and learned more about each other. But most importantly we connected.

Now I am confident, the relationship is safe, despite the 300 mile distance. The thing is that when we're together, it's almost magical. That deep warm contented feeling. Its not a case of just enjoying each others company, we catalyse, and the transformation is becoming visible externally too.

My health has not been this good for years. It's November, no asthma of note yet. usually I am not walking any more by this time of year. Well sometimes, I'm using only one stick!I still move about OK indoors and can still make it to the bathroom in th mornings.

Emotionally, my fears are tempered, and I look forward to spending time with my family. The drag of cooking,cleaning, worrying is no longer there. Sure Jaye does it now, but we share. That black darkness that pervades my psyche, the moment the clocks go back has yet to find me.

I last felt this in love when I was seventeen.